Learning about being a “21st century designer” intimidates me. I know that I will have to adapt as I learn. But I struggle to see past myself when it comes to making things.
It doesn’t matter what the breif is about I have to apply my knowledge and experiences to the project. I dont think about “my target market”. As soon as I start to think about what other people want or like, I lose myself. It becomes generic.
I feel a pressure to alter HOW I work to suit this image that is being portrayed to us of a 21st century designer.
I know Im just seeing things black and white, there can obviously be compromises and not all designers work in the ultra business minded way that i feel pressured to attempt.
Instead of feeling lucky and excited to be a design student I feel this looming pressure to be this thing that im not sure I can be.
I spent a week procrastinating. I let my insecurities about uni turn in to a big scary all encompassing life crisis. After boring everyone I know with my moans I realized I probably had to wise up . I went in to uni yesterday and finished soldering a wee sample I had in my mind and I finished it. I cant describe how just completing a very small thing in my head made me all chuffed with myself and for now at least I have a totally different mindset on everything that’s being asked of me at concerning uni… also went charity shopping and bought myself some amazing boots, pretty sure they helped.
First week of Uni I made a terrible impression on myself. Everyone seemed to just know what they were doing, but I just couldn’t figure out how to hush the excitement of actually BEING at University. So I just started drawing, and eventually my brain sort of caught up… sort of for a little while. I had a great idea of where to go with my project, which is still a great idea, but bringing it to fruition is what Im struggling with.
Its not that I am doubting my ability, or doubting my idea. I am so passionate and excited one minute and then the next minute I pull back to earth and realize I have no Idea how to begin transitioning my idea in to reality. Except… Sometimes I DO know how to begin and its all great again and then the next minute…